500 D

Lately this has been very important part of my daily life. 500 D is the VOLVO bus which i catch every morning to reach my office and its not just i use to reach office its much more than that. Lets not got to that part , just one of those incident which i will mention here.
Like any other day i was dressed in formal and just entered one of the 500 D which was about to leave. As i got in , no seats were vacant so i got to sit on the luggage space behind driver seat( which is most of the time used for sitting in Bangalore).This seat has its own pro and con , one such pro is you will be surrounded by girls( if lucky then pretty girls).Just bus was about to start one of the girl whom i have seen in this bus regularly got in. She is among the most beautiful girls i have seen live (live : Not on TV) and i looked at her , her eyes just strolled around for a vacant seat and there was none. She came near to me and handed over her bag to keep at the space behind me and a smile( Most important part) and after some time she got seat and i gave her bag back. Till this time i was just lost in this girl and did not realized that just opposite to me there is a girl and she seems to be bit interested in me (how you come to know a girl is interested in you is difficult part to explain :P ). Till this time i was given bag by 2-3 girls and once they got seat back returned there back and was bit irritated by it. Once more a girl got in and this girl who was seated opposite to me told her to give the bag to me. As i took bag and then looked at the girl seated opposite to me gave smile and this is it. In guys word "Ladki hassi to fassi". In between there were times when our eyes met and it just met.... :P . whole time i wished she should not get down till my office and my wish was granted. We got down together, walked together and at last ...
I: you are new to IBM. (I saw her tag when she was about to get down)
She: Not new , Its been 6 months.
I: Never seen you in this bus earlier.
She: Yea , i never catch bus from here .
I: and you stay in BTM( As i do).
She: No, I stay in kormangala.
I:okay....But you are bengoli??
She: No where from north...
We kept on talking for some time and then we reached for the shuttle spot. she suggested we should walk or it was kind of mutual agreement to walk.We had few discussion about her manager, how she turn up into IT and mostly about her. ;)
She:you were reading something.
I:Novel.
She: Are you sure you were reading ! with a naughty smile.
I was bit provoked thought of saying " yea got lost in between your eyes" but then thought could be bit cheesy and then i said yea i was reading "sense of ..." .
Then all of sudden she stoped and said my office is here (there was one more IBM building which i came to know that day) and till that time i was not prepared to say farewell as i thought we still have more 5 min of walk to reach our office.
she: It was nice meeting you.
I: yea, I would prefer meeting you again.
She : yea sure.
Then there was a question on both of our mind "how we will get in touch" . I almost turned and about to walk then just turned back to her and she said "sametime" and showed me her full name on batch.

we both walked to our respective ways.

Confused...!!

Confused i am with the things happening around me.... just few days back ... i have been dreaming of the things i never thought before... things that i hated doing ... i am loving doing those.. and the guilt has been suppressed by unknown feelings.... i have been asked questions for which i don't have any answers and being silent that i love most, is perceived as just a guy with a cold heart...
Once again dark thoughts which used to trouble me has started knocking my doors.

Just to Begin again....

Its been almost 2yrs since i saw this page myself..... and the best part is no one else has visited either.... :) .

I am at office and dont know what to do... have got 2 months to do nothing as i have resigned my first company after working here for 3 yrs..... Life has taken so many turns that i have forgotten the way back.Only hopes and dreams which makes me wake up every morning ... sometimes wear nice cloths and put some nice deodorants when i have crush on some girl... so that may be i can find some attention... and when i get bored of these thing..... then the real me wakes up says.... "Common dude ... how many times you gonna do this....!!! it doesnt matter...!!!! its your life not some programed code .. that it will work when u put all the logic perfectly.." somewhere i read cant remember where :P .... " In life you have to let things go as it wants... dont push harder otherwise you will be pushed aside..." so just moving on .....

चीनी

जिंदगी से यू इस तरह मिठास ख़तम हो गए की .........
हम चाय में चीनी भी डालना भूल गए .........

कवि कभी रोया नही करता वह केवल गया करता है.....

कवि कभी रोया नही करता वह केवल गया करता है.....
दर्द सभी सीने में रखकर , वह जीवन पाया करता है.....
जब अम्बर में मेघ गरजते ,तभी कवि के भाव छलकते .....
और चादनी जब रोटी है , तभी कवि के नयन बरसते.....
आंसू संग आहों का बंधन , कवि केवल पाया करता है ...
कवि कभी रोया नही करता वह केवल गया करता है.....

Since ...........

after long time ....i am here again............

i was thinking....wat should i write and the randoomness of mind is not let me to think on something..... Is it just with me or everyone....

okay...lets start with the recent incedent....."Accident"......

just few days ago i met with an accident....and this was something i liked to an extent ...and i dont know why......it may be i was so much bored of my day to day life that i was expecting something new to happen... first of all when i had accedent...i was afraid ...but just 5 min after that it was like some comedy is going around me.... the first question i was asked " R U DRUNK" .....then someone said frm behind..." U R VERY LUCKY....UR PARENTS MUST HAVE DONE GOOD THINGS THAT IS WHY U ESCAPED"....and many more hilarious things happend......but next few days was like hell.....it was not pain frm the injuries which i had.....it was the phone calls which i was getting.....

few normal quetions was "WHOS MISTAKE ? URS OR THE CAB DRIVER".....how the hell i can know..... it was mine or his.....but still i said...cab drivers.....

But yes...i have some pain in my body but still i am feeling like something good has happend.....i dont know wat is it.......but yes....after long time i am happy agin.....still lost in the thought of wat is that made me feel greate.......

unknown path

here i am again on unknown path,
like a small boat without its captain,
winds have brought with it,
the bundle of emotions directing this boat
in unknown directions.........

here i am again traveling with the wind,
driving fast and slow with the emotions of
past........
i think this winds are making me delirius.
hoping of a path to find.......